Heartbreak
crumbles like glaciers in pieces
proving climate change
to non believers.
Piercing shards of ice- cold
frigid
emotion
unfixed puzzle pieces
falling.
She lied, rather omitted the truth
it should have been acknowledged-
Who am I to demand transparency
its been years since we were intertwined.
I think I’m important, yes- ego.
Aren’t we all vulnerable and use it as a
warm blanket to hide the truth?
It covers me from the elements
so I wont feel.
Eyes.
Dark. Maybe black.
Too black to see the white that surrounds them.
Spanish eyes.
South American.
Peruvian. Chilean.
Either way, I’m sure she speak Spanish in her home.
A conversational Spanglish of sorts.
She never shows a smile.
Maybe a flirting grimace. An awkward, “Hello, How are you?”
“Good. See you later.”
Same time tomorrow.
That’s what I know.
I anticipate.
Like a pearl diver,
reaching to the surface for air, then I dive down immediately.
An awkward hello as a reason to breathe.
As if life isn’t reason enough.
I have to breathe again soon,
But I dive deeper this time,
and I don’t know when that next breath will come.
Everything was new,
From the smell in the air, and the tall buildings,
I felt overwhelmed and you didn’t help.
You were supposed to be my rock
Instead you were a dictator.
“Listen to what I’m tellin’ you boy, “you would reiterate.
“I’m tellin’ you this for your own good!”
But you failed to understand that underneath this tough exterior
Was a scared, shy, twelve-year old, who just wanted his mommy.
You never took the time to understand me.
A guide, that source of light,
I needed direction from birth.
Instead, I settled for holidays and phone calls
And my grandmother, aunts, and uncles
Making up for the time I should have been spending with you.
Now, I’m here.
Different street names, new faces and school, how do get home?
The thought of home… where she knows my favorite foods;
where she took care of me when I broke my wrist,
I was ten.
She watched me ride my bike
And took off my training wheels when I
Graduated and became a “big boy.”
What do you remember?
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